Success Vs Choices

After lecture my little student during tuition for an hour, somehow I come into enlightenment of my meanings in life.

Everyone of us is born without a choice. As we ages, we expend our abilities to generate more choices. We study well, we have the choice to enter into the course we wanted. Success is a measured by the ability to generate choices.

We are content because we are satisfied with the choices that we can select from.

Well, there exists people who has minimum of no choice throughout their life. In every stage of their life, they are forced to choose or do things that they are not willing to.

Fortunately, we do have the ability to generate choices. Making the right choices, allows us to generate more choices.

Therefore, do not blame people for not having a choice. BLAME YOURSELF.

Huray!

Huray exam finally ended. The last few papers were truly torturing... Idoitic ... why they like to spread the exam paper in such a long period? haz... Went for buffet dinner today and I am so full now! lol... Quite a fun day.. But feel so slpy after ate lotsa of food.

Found a nice song... "control myself" lol.. I like the song, especially the rap part.. The feel is so great.. the guy really express the feeling well. And ... control myself.. haha.. I need it too. haha.. and i believe I had done well man~ Right? hahahahhahha~

Attachment going to start soon. Perhap i will have more time to blog le.. Just like the reason why i started to blog. Cuz, it is simply to boring during work. Hope i dun have to "waste" my time by blogging. heez... Have 10 days to buy my clothings, haha.. Yeah!!!! By sadly, i have to make up all the tuition that i cancelled. In a way is sian, but at least i have something to do during the 10 days, else surely very bore.

Just when i wanted to go back BNSS for BB and Mac is not around! WHY???? When i am free and he is not around... Then who else can accompany to visit my BB!!? Wanted to see how "disastrous" it is now. Well, according to Mac, BB managed to recruit more people, however, I think it is an illusion. Ha~ Come on.. what is quantity without quality. Ha~ Which badge can be as good as uS? 75% express student, 25% head prefect? Haaz..... Mac agree? lol...

Ok.. time to stop that lame crap. Sayonara!~

Realization

Today is a special day that I should rmb... I come to realize that i have done something truly bad and have communicate the wrong message to my friends. My friends... please erase that part of words that i had mentioned.

And... i feel truly sorry for discredit someone to such extent. May everything happens in the future be good... Look forward and move on... I hope we can all do that... Really~ Angel will protect all of us.

Come to understand that I am again in moral dilemma.. ha~ Sometime is really hard to keep your promise... Haiz... The worst thing in life is... things are just in front of you but... hahaha! Perhaps that what most people has to face to grow.. A stage in our life... Some saying that I ignored and discredited in the past are somehow true ... I cant bear to leave but I have too.... is it the best and the wisest choice. Nothing to feel bad: To you... Is it just a way for me to grow.

Shit... I think I cant .... At lost.... no one's fault... why can I be cool? LOL.... Laughing at myself now... Falling deeper? I guess Yes... Determination to move on? Strengthen... What i am talking about? I dunno.... Hahahaz....Searching Around? Definitely Yes.... and don't avoid.... dont want to lose you as a friend...

Regards, Many loves... Last time I shall say this word... Loving you, and change to CHerish you.. Hahaz...

I guess this is a pretty a "chim" blog.... for those who have question... sorry wun be entertained.. Ha~ Too bad.....!!!!!

Dream

Lesson resumes again...! I DUN WANT!... I WANT BREAK!!.. I just hate school nowadays. The readings are never ending! I miss the old days in BNSS... All the works are requires no/little brain works. You can play for the whole year, and only study at the end of the year, still can manage to do it reasonable well. Haiz.. but now? Even with such amount of effort put in, I can hardly understand anything!! WHY??? Anyway.. still gotta to accept the fact.. Let's face it... TML is beginning of the suffering! 5 more weeks to go!

Lol... I made a rather interesting dream this morning. Was sitting around a table withKaren, and one of the sevens (Cant rmb who)! Karen was reading her notes.. I think she was back from England will be going back soon. Then, Shujun come over and sit down. She asked Karen some question which is quite stupid.. Cant rmb. lol.. Then I said, Ya.. you are right, Karen came back for a day and is going to fly back to UK. Lol.. and she believed! So i say... Kao! You Dreaming ah? And I was quite sure that she was dreaming. And.. I wake up from my dream. Lol.. Ironically, I am the one that was dreaming. Lolz.... What a ... Interesting dream lez... lOl.. hope you all will understand the feeling when u wake up from dream after u tell pple STOP DREAMING~!!!

Thursday

Lol.. i am writing my blog again. Get the hang of it this few days. Don't ask me the reason, cause I am not sure of it too. Today was quite a good day except the tuition session. The same reason again, I simply hate pple who don't think before he say dunno how to do. I complained to my friend, and he said, just earn the money dude... Don't really want to agree with him, but I know nothing i can do to change his attitude.. Perhap, I should suggest to his mum to change the tutor. Ha.... Should I be so stupid? eh.... should go and think about it...ha

Continues from yesterday, I understand that I simply cant hate. I feel awful to hate and is always better to learn to understand and forgive. Understand that faults and misunderstanding takes 2 hands to clap... I finally know that is time to stop reminiscing about the past. Think about ways to "facilitates" fair exchange isnt the right way. Because there is always chance of you being the root cause. Always be reflective, sometimes fault arise within you.

Spent the day at home, went to KFC for lunch and did some readings there. Lol.. what a contradict to the orginal plan that I had made. Time to break away from the queries. Somehow, I must conclude that I am the last in the list. There should be time when you should listen to friend's advices....

Reluctant to make myself think along that line, but all the facts point into that direction. Perhap, is time I open my mouth and question. But, who the hell ask those questions? Yet again, if I don't question, how will I know? Deduce cant yield a certain answer. It is full of doubt to question about later... then... Self-confirmation bias sets in to alter your orgination conclusion. Haiz, that how fragile a human is~ how indecision one can be.... Alrite.. Let's fuck it.. heck it ... Life goes on...

Time to organize my life again? The path ahead may not be smooth, but certainly better than the past. Sometime, one has to let go something for something else... Understanding that nothing is perfect is a virtue. I am better with certainty stuffs... something is controllable, proportional. Let's study hard, and have my full attention put in making present money and future money. Things that has nothing got to do with that should not cross my mind from now on. I think is pretty hard... But lets try... ..

Tml is better! lol.. cause i will be going for tuition! Money making session!!!!

Determination & Perserverence

Just come back from tuition. I wonder why the new generation give up one a simple math question so easy! I think the MOE should start changing their moral education syllabus! They should have include many many many stories about determination and perseverence. Perhap with that, the younger generation will know what is call perserverence!!! If you arent going to help yourself, who will????

And, the fucking primary school please stop spoon feeding the kids! Let them think!!!!! Feed and feed and feed... and that kids just refuse to think~ and wait for answer to be given. WTF attitude is that.... Come on... world doesnt works like that!

Spent 1 hour on a single question today. I refused to give any answer to him. Not even a hint.... And yes... he continues to wait for answer. I hardly see much effort was put in to solve the question... even though he insisted he did!.... Come on, parent... time to tell your children about self-reliance... Why doesnt the government instill this thinking in them!... Longer school hours I see... and more time for spoon feeding? Crap.. system.